Residue of Pleasure

She lovingly tugs on the tab that peels the soft plastic strip away from the carton. The rest of the wrapper comes away easily. She crumples it up and sets it aside for disposal. She pops the white box top backwards and excitedly rips the silver foil-like paper to reveal 20 glistening, white, cylindrical cigarette tips. The first selection means everything—front and center and she may make too obvious of a choice while front and far left could mean good luck will come her way today.

Now for the moment to which all this has lead. She fingers the perfect white cigarette and places its tip tenderly between her lips. Its paper clings to the delicate, barely moistened skin like an autumn leaf about to descend from its limb. She flicks the lighter, once then twice until it ignites and brings the perfect flame towards the end of the cigarette. It’s an intricate process as she allows only the outer wall of the flame to make contact with the protrusion. It turns from organic brown to orange ember and black as she makes her first drag. The embers travel toward her slowly and she inhales the smoke and releases her hold on the lighter. Eyes close and a moment passes before she opens her eyes again to exhale a used light gray cloud.

This is it. This is why people smoke. Have you ever wanted to know? I am an ex-smoker and this moment is right up there with cracking open a can of Coke or popping bubble wrap—it’s a simple pleasure that cannot be overly examined. To do so would cheapen the experience.

I realize that smoking is a very political subject these days and a loving description of my first drag isn’t exactly tolerable, but a tribute must be made to an ancient and pleasurable practice. I won’t be launching into an essay about subliminal messages in cigarette ads or its presence in film and culture because it’s already been done everywhere else on the web (try finding the web address for Camel cigarettes from Google for example). This is a trip down memory lane, a way to curb my own craving today, or dare I say, just a celebration of the ritual and practice of smoking.

This morning, I watched several cigarette commercials from the 1950s and 1960s, available here http://www.roadode.com/smoke_2.shtml. Watch them. You will soon realize that smoking is not only a simple way to make any moment more peaceful, it is also truly nostalgic. Perhaps, more than the nicotine and tar, that is what makes smoking so addictive—the pureness of it. I never struggled with a real physical addiction, so I am able to see the lighter side of smoking. I miss it and still partake about four times and year. Smoking is a culture. Smokers know when to take breaks, they have no problem witnessing an entire sunset without getting up and they also know when to get back to real life—the cigarette is a kind of living alarm because when it’s finished, so is your moment of peace.

I will probably smoke one cigarette today before marginalizing the other twenty cigarettes to a back drawer and throwing them away next year when they’ve dried up and begun to smell like raisins. I will enjoy my one or two smokes and I won’t feel the least bit bad about it either.